Neither Introvert nor Extrovert

What am I? A question that I have been asking myself these few years. 

During my teenage years, I have always been labelled as an easy outgoing girl. I am or should I say I was much an extrovert then. Yes! I convinced myself that I was an extrovert. Just because I like to mingle around with friends. I like to be in the company of friends. I hate being alone, eat alone, shop alone, travel alone,... practically I hate doing anything and everything alone.


Could it be our character changes as we grow? Or could it be our character changes as we go through different stages of life? I have always thought I am who I am. I bet many of us do not realise that we are not what we seem to be. 

The world thinks that.....

• I am an "outgoing" or a "people person."
• I feel comfortable in groups and like working in group.
• I have many friends and I know lots of people.
• I can't sit still and I am always up and about.

Many include I myself have always passed negative connotation to introvert without trying to understand what an introvert is. 

So who am I actually? 

The answer is I am the weirdo one neither introvert nor extrovert. I am an AMBIVERT, the smart arsehole who fall smack in between the intro-extro spectrum. Wow!! Ambiverts have the best of both worlds, able to tap into the strengths of both when needed. But hey no!!! I am the weirdo one, the real weirdo one.... the failure case of ambiverts.

Who am I? What am I?

• I like to be in the crowd but I prefer to stay alone in the crowd. 
• I am definitely not quiet because I love to interact with different people. But I won't stay long in the interaction session as most the time you will see me sitting all alone immersing in my own little world after that. 
• I get easily bored. 
• I can't sit still and love to explore the world on my own basically or with someone who are of the same channel as me. 
• I love to share my thoughts and life on social media because that is the only way I can communicate and relate to my own life. 
• I hate talking to real people because I find real people very fake and they tend to judge others with their own perceptions. So by talking to social media, I can talk senses and nonsense as well and I don't have to care how people gonna judge me on social media. Go ahead... judge me whatever you want. wtf!!! 

I do believe the journey that I have been walking through for the past years has shaped to what I am today. And yet funny coz I still have not found who I am. I am just a gloriously complex and complicated being. The world is just too judgemental. You are and me too. Judgemental!!! Wtf!!!